F.A.I.R

Tat's right.
I am talking about fairness.

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Today teacher gave us our position in class.
I am not sure my feeling.
Am I really HAPPY or actually SAD?
Supposed I should be very happy.
But I don't feel so.
If I laughed, I not sure it is from my tip of heart,
or from the fake part.
I feel very bersalah.
Maybe I should not say all these.
But I just wanna expose my feelings through my blog.
Yeah, to tell the truth,
When I know my results,
Of course, who will not be happy.
But when I know they count grade and not percentage,
My feelings suddenly became VERY VERY DOOM!!!
I really feel like crying.
Not because my percentage r lower,
But because i feel not fair for others.
I can't be tat happy like last time edi.
If other ppl ask me,
"Wat position u get?"
Should I answer him,
"Oh, the proud 1st."
or
"...The fake 1st."
or
"Find urself, no mood..."
...
I wanted to cry...
T___________________T
Everybody congrats me,
Which I saw,
Their eyes,
Have something to say.
Is tat my feeling only?
*face wet*
Especially when Jason kept on telling
the others about their position
when they count their percentage.
Make me feel more WORSE.
And Jason kept on telling me,
Actually she should be 1st.
U r? Err... I think 3rd or 4th.
After tat, still not enough.
Still wanna insult me.
*bang head on the wall*

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There is only a way
to make me feel better.
I will be back.
But nothing can be worse than this.
Sorry if I make u sad.
Or make u angry.
Or others.
I just wanna express my feelings through my blog.
I know I less update.
No readers anymore.
Just wanna say something.
Is tat wrong?
Is tat is wrong,
I will SHUT MY MOUTH.
thx~

Z_hen_men_G
[Blank Mind of Puzzle]

p/s: No matter wat u feel now, just wanna say thx for sharing ur time to share my feelings. Thx very much!